I'm not gonna do it. Settle down. I never do. The thoughts are just strong today. I'm tired, in pain. I've been tired, I've been in pain. I'm grateful, I have a good life. I love my friends, my family, my husband, my animals, my life. Parts of it. Not this part. I'm just tired. … Continue reading I’ll try again tomorrow
Category: HEALING
“Used To It”
Fifteen minutes. That’s how fast the delivery driver got me my medicine. The house is quiet. I’m alone, sitting on my bed, switching between eating gummy bears and popping each pill out of the aluminum sheets. A couple years ago when I was in the U.S., I remember trying to pick up this prescription. I … Continue reading “Used To It”
Film School Friend
He was as southern boy as a southern boy gets, gay as all get out, but loved women so much he still slept with them. We met in film school. He wore daisy dukes with cowboy boots and colorful glasses, drove a convertible red Mustang, chewed gum, smoked cigarettes, and blasted Britney Spears. His accent … Continue reading Film School Friend
Right of Passage
I hadn't seen you yet since it happened. When I did, the pain and wisdom in your eyes was only something that comes from the deep grief of losing a parent. The eyes forever changed. And selfishly, I wondered if anything would ever be the same. If your eyes would return to their “normal” soft … Continue reading Right of Passage
Channeling the “Drones”
My husband and I have been seeing things in the sky over the past month. The first recent sighting (I used to see them a lot when I was younger) was over Thanksgiving before I had heard anything about these "drones" in New Jersey. We were chatting outside around 9:30-10 drinking some beers with two … Continue reading Channeling the “Drones”
All Evil Empires Must Fall
Trump was shot at today during a rally. My intuition going on high alert, saying something feels off. Photos not matching videos and visa versa per usual. I know this will be great for his election. The Democratic Party is falling apart as it should. The Republican Party is falling apart as it should. I … Continue reading All Evil Empires Must Fall
Conversations with Consuelo
We sat on the couch together, chatting like giddy girls. You sang me the catholic Spanish hymns you wanted us to play at your funeral while I admired your voice like always. I watched your beautiful old hands and fingers follow the words of the songs from your tattered book. When you finished, I asked … Continue reading Conversations with Consuelo
I’m Tired of this Body
I'm tired of this body. The stiffness and pain in my muscles. The hair loss. Having no energy. How long it takes me to fight a common fucking cold. How inaccessible alternative healthcare is. How ill-equipped modern healthcare is when it comes to whole body health. I am tired of having this interfere with my … Continue reading I’m Tired of this Body
Hello You
I could have sworn we had made amends, well, maybe not amends but a type of loose truce. To stay out of each other's business, but there's something about these days. Time is moving faster and slower all at once. This old version of myself rearing her lonesome heart. Missing my family, the ones off … Continue reading Hello You
CONVERSATIONS WITH ASSHOLES 