I'm not gonna do it. Settle down. I never do. The thoughts are just strong today. I'm tired, in pain. I've been tired, I've been in pain. I'm grateful, I have a good life. I love my friends, my family, my husband, my animals, my life. Parts of it. Not this part. I'm just tired. … Continue reading I’ll try again tomorrow
Category: POETRY
I’m Tired of this Body
I'm tired of this body. The stiffness and pain in my muscles. The hair loss. Having no energy. How long it takes me to fight a common fucking cold. How inaccessible alternative healthcare is. How ill-equipped modern healthcare is when it comes to whole body health. I am tired of having this interfere with my … Continue reading I’m Tired of this Body
Amnestic Reunion
I knew I recognized that heart Like déjà vuI squint and scan my deficient mindWhich isn't where I'd find youInstead, I close my eyes, and there you are, everywhereOur amnestic reunionAnd the infinite illuminates So I watch you,I admire you,and I'm grateful because that is all that is allowed.And sometimes I howl,and I miss you,and … Continue reading Amnestic Reunion
Vast
Today I was reminded about how necessary it is for me to see space, vastness.I was reminded of who I am when I forget the power of expanse. I am closed, stiff, lacking depth energetically and physically. I am stuck, scared, stubborn, and full of judgment. I am a person that discounts the trauma and … Continue reading Vast
Get Some Rest
Hands raised,No fight left in this particular battle,Because you hide beneath the surface.I’ve dulled knives digging,Skinning myself like a rabbit,Only to find flesh sensitive to wind and touch,Still, you rear your vile head, Poisoning me and others.I shun, I beg, I curse and rip your rotten roots but it’s too lateand back you go into … Continue reading Get Some Rest
Get In Get Out
I sharpened them just for you,Cat clawing from the barrel only to reach the impenetrable layer. Back to the bottom,Hollow and damp, Harvest light cracking through the seams and I can smell and feel the other side despite being contained. I shaped the wind,Wrapping it tightly around my oppressor,I shook the earth with might,I shattered … Continue reading Get In Get Out
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Removed but close enough,Heart tightening for what's to come,Making me question where we end and another begins,This God, weaved like fabric into every inch. This is how we learn the lessons of strangers,And you are anything but, Because I see you,In your wildflowers resembling spilled paint,In the wind that rolls through with the right words,In the … Continue reading …
Leakey, Texas
Leakey, Texas.Thinking of you in these hills,Sisters barefoot and isolated,Only the trees lending an ear to your exceptionally curious minds,My own heart healing while honoring my unconditional love for you,And you.
Stay Still, Don’t Spill
Stay still, don’t spill,How many hours of different ceilings I’ve stared I couldn’t say,Body straight, you travel,burning, reminding. Don’t be upset,Don’t get anxious,Because like an ear to train tracks,It listens, It scouts, they vibrate.Like a conductor in symphony,It points, it waves, they play. My bittersweet reminders,How many must I have?Through pain and challenged vanity,I SLOW,I … Continue reading Stay Still, Don’t Spill
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