It was New Year’s Eve.
“Mom, just pick a card!”
She looked terrified.
“It’s just tarot, you can make whatever you want of it.”
She looked away from me, nose high, “I don’t want to, it’s just not my thing.”
“Well it’s kinda my thing. Don’t you want to step out of your box for a moment and try something different?”
“Mel, I don’t know why you stopped coming to mass, you know you can be forgiven.”
I sighed, ” I don’t need to be forgiven.”
“I’m just saying with all the men and the drinking, it’s not healthy for a girl your age. You should be finding a good husband, planning children. You don’t have as much time as you might think.”
“What about me screams husband and children? Besides, I’m a lesbian!”
Her mouth dropped, “Are you a lesbian?”
“Mom, no, I’m not! But what if I was? You could have really offended me. That was fucked up how far your mouth just hit the floor.”
She relaxed a bit in her seat, “You know I would love you no matter what, right?”
“I know. Now just pick a damn card.”
“I told you I don’t like to play with this dark stuff.”
“It’s not dark. You do realize there are different forms and avenues for spirituality don’t you? Now, you spent my whole life shoving yours down my throat. It’s time for you to take a crack at mine.”
She hesitated and pulled a card. The devil. God damnit of course. The absolute worst card a god fearing woman could pull. She gasped and I began laughing hysterically. I couldn’t help it.
“I told you I didn’t want to pick a card Mel! Why did you have to push me so hard? This does not align with my faith!”
She stormed out and I still couldn’t stop laughing as I reached my hand for hers.
“Mom, you really think your god is that petty? Let me explain the card!”
The bedroom door slammed and I heard a muffled, “Fuck off!”
“Well that certainly didn’t go as I planned,” I mumbled to myself while pouring us two glasses of wine. Still giggling, I sheepishly snuck into her room.
She accepted the wine and we both shared a good laugh. Nothing more satisfying than hearing your mom awkwardly say “fuck.”