Fifteen minutes. That’s how fast the delivery driver got me my medicine. The house is quiet. I’m alone, sitting on my bed, switching between eating gummy bears and popping each pill out of the aluminum sheets. A couple years ago when I was in the U.S., I remember trying to pick up this prescription. I … Continue reading “Used To It”
Category: MARRIAGE
Marriage Vol.2
We'd been arguing for over an hour and had finally hit a lull. I wrapped my hands around my neck to stop the words from spilling out. It didn't work. "You know, sometimes it feels like you enjoy sucking the fucking spirit out of me." The words felt like the truest I'd spoken in a … Continue reading Marriage Vol.2
Valor
You told me fear was necessary,That you loved your fear,That you respected your fear. That it brings the most clever out of you,Heightens every sense,Reveals your resilience under pressure. Teaches you how to best navigate a difficult situation. I sat in admiration,Thinking about how much stronger the world would be with more of you in … Continue reading Valor
Coffee Talk
I watched her soft adolescent hands fiddle the fake engagement ring on her finger, She spoke of wanting marriage. I wanted to tell her to wait. I wanted to tell her that boys suck every last bit of life out of girls her age. I wanted to tell her she needs more time to learn … Continue reading Coffee Talk
Are you happy?
"Are you happy?" I stayed silent on the other end of the phone. Ugh, I don't even know what that question means. I think for most people not suffering from chronic depression it's pretty straightforward. I paused for my thoughts. "What do you mean?" He laughed, "I MEAN are you happy?" I scan my brain … Continue reading Are you happy?
Old Friend
I hadn't seen her in a long time, so we made a date to catch up at a new bar in north Austin. We grew up together raising hell, but we both settled down after her rehab and my new admittance to university. Not that she was worse off, I had spent my time in … Continue reading Old Friend
Bitter Ass Bitch
When friends ask when you are going to have children...
“Leave your Wife”
"Hey Mel." You whispered in my ear from behind, I was alone at the bar writing. I didn't turn around. I shut my eyes and all our memories flashed quickly, emotions tagged along. Excitement, fear, despair, resentment, longing. I opened my eyes and reached for your hand over my shoulder. Your touch, a wave … Continue reading “Leave your Wife”
Scotch
My head pounded from the scotch when he called me at dawn. I wished it were one of those mornings that I woke still drunk, thinking I’d fooled the booze. Not today. "I’ve fallen in love with someone," his voice was deep and stern. As if this hangover couldn’t get worse. I thought about rather … Continue reading Scotch
CONVERSATIONS WITH ASSHOLES 