Fifteen minutes. That’s how fast the delivery driver got me my medicine. The house is quiet. I’m alone, sitting on my bed, switching between eating gummy bears and popping each pill out of the aluminum sheets. A couple years ago when I was in the U.S., I remember trying to pick up this prescription. I … Continue reading “Used To It”
Tag: #depression
Hello You
I could have sworn we had made amends, well, maybe not amends but a type of loose truce. To stay out of each other's business, but there's something about these days. Time is moving faster and slower all at once. This old version of myself rearing her lonesome heart. Missing my family, the ones off … Continue reading Hello You
Depression, The Truth
Thoughts lag coming to an abrupt halt, heavy and hollow,Eyes paralyzed staring at something,Seeing nothing.Air releases entirely from the lungs,Taking a light head to remind me to breathe.Body numbing, Stomach falling,and cheeks flushed to the ghost that has just reappeared. Snap out of it,Stay positive.An idea, a mistaken belief,That this springs from nurturing negative thoughts,That … Continue reading Depression, The Truth
Are you happy?
"Are you happy?" I stayed silent on the other end of the phone. Ugh, I don't even know what that question means. I think for most people not suffering from chronic depression it's pretty straightforward. I paused for my thoughts. "What do you mean?" He laughed, "I MEAN are you happy?" I scanned my brain … Continue reading Are you happy?
Sliding Scale Therapy
"I wasn't sure you were coming today," she was startled at the sight of me when she rushed past with a bowl full of chili. Smelled good. "Margaret, just ring me when she's done paying and we can get started," she winked at me. I missed my last appointment and I don't blame her for … Continue reading Sliding Scale Therapy
CONVERSATIONS WITH ASSHOLES 