We sat on the couch together, chatting like giddy girls. You sang me the catholic Spanish hymns you wanted us to play at your funeral while I admired your voice like always. I watched your beautiful old hands and fingers follow the words of the songs from your tattered book. When you finished, I asked … Continue reading Conversations with Consuelo
I’m Tired of this Body
I'm tired of this body. The stiffness and pain in my muscles. The hair loss. Having no energy. How long it takes me to fight a common fucking cold. How inaccessible alternative healthcare is. How ill-equipped modern healthcare is when it comes to whole body health. I am tired of having this interfere with my … Continue reading I’m Tired of this Body
Hello You
I could have sworn we had made amends, well, maybe not amends but a type of loose truce. To stay out of each other's business, but there's something about these days. Time is moving faster and slower all at once. This old version of myself rearing her lonesome heart. Missing my family, the ones off … Continue reading Hello You
“Fuck that Meditation”
I've been feeling unsettled for the past week or so, and instead of dwelling on the feeling, I've been observing it with curiosity. It all started with me trying a meditation style that was suggested to me, which made me uncomfortable. Despite the discomfort, I practiced it about five times before something exciting happened. My … Continue reading “Fuck that Meditation”
Karen Sighting
I'd just finished picking up a couple things from the grocery store for my friend's baby shower. I was adding the destination to my phone when I heard a violent bang on the passenger window. It was a woman, seemingly foaming at the mouth and throwing her cracky noodle arms all over the place. She … Continue reading Karen Sighting
Marriage Vol.2
We'd been arguing for over an hour and had finally hit a lull. I wrapped my hands around my neck to stop the words from spilling out. It didn't work. "You know, sometimes it feels like you enjoy sucking the fucking spirit out of me." The words felt like the truest I'd spoken in a … Continue reading Marriage Vol.2
Amnestic Reunion
I knew I recognized that heart Like déjà vuI squint and scan my deficient mindWhich isn't where I'd find youInstead, I close my eyes, and there you are, everywhereOur amnestic reunionAnd the infinite illuminates So I watch you,I admire you,and I'm grateful because that is all that is allowed.And sometimes I howl,and I miss you,and … Continue reading Amnestic Reunion
Vast
Today I was reminded about how necessary it is for me to see space, vastness.I was reminded of who I am when I forget the power of expanse. I am closed, stiff, lacking depth energetically and physically. I am stuck, scared, stubborn, and full of judgment. I am a person that discounts the trauma and … Continue reading Vast
COVID Blues
Most of us have no understanding or compassion towards how sensitive EVERYONE'S emotional states are after being locked down in houses gorging news, booze, and social media and it shows. Let's be aware that the majority of us, some more willing to admit than others, are dealing with some severe mental health degradation, phobias, addictions, … Continue reading COVID Blues
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