Yesterday, we planted trees on our property in the pines. I can't wait to see these babies 30 years from now. In a world addicted to instant gratification, it feels weird to think this far ahead, and I think that's why we are in such big trouble. Even if I'm not on Earth to enjoy … Continue reading Can’t Afford Nothing Anymore
Category: MENTAL HEALTH
I’m Tired of this Body
I'm tired of this body. The stiffness and pain in my muscles. The hair loss. Having no energy. How long it takes me to fight a common fucking cold. How inaccessible alternative healthcare is. How ill-equipped modern healthcare is when it comes to whole body health. I am tired of having this interfere with my … Continue reading I’m Tired of this Body
Hello You
I could have sworn we had made amends, well, maybe not amends but a type of loose truce. To stay out of each other's business, but there's something about these days. Time is moving faster and slower all at once. This old version of myself rearing her lonesome heart. Missing my family, the ones off … Continue reading Hello You
Karen Sighting
I'd just finished picking up a couple things from the grocery store for my friend's baby shower. I was adding the destination to my phone when I heard a violent bang on the passenger window. It was a woman, seemingly foaming at the mouth and throwing her cracky noodle arms all over the place. She … Continue reading Karen Sighting
Marriage Vol.2
We'd been arguing for over an hour and had finally hit a lull. I wrapped my hands around my neck to stop the words from spilling out. It didn't work. "You know, sometimes it feels like you enjoy sucking the fucking spirit out of me." The words felt like the truest I'd spoken in a … Continue reading Marriage Vol.2
Amnestic Reunion
I knew I recognized that heart Like déjà vuI squint and scan my deficient mindWhich isn't where I'd find youInstead, I close my eyes, and there you are, everywhereOur amnestic reunionAnd the infinite illuminates So I watch you,I admire you,and I'm grateful because that is all that is allowed.And sometimes I howl,and I miss you,and … Continue reading Amnestic Reunion
Vast
Today I was reminded about how necessary it is for me to see space, vastness.I was reminded of who I am when I forget the power of expanse. I am closed, stiff, lacking depth energetically and physically. I am stuck, scared, stubborn, and full of judgment. I am a person that discounts the trauma and … Continue reading Vast
COVID Blues
Most of us have no understanding or compassion towards how sensitive EVERYONE'S emotional states are after being locked down in houses gorging news, booze, and social media and it shows. Let's be aware that the majority of us, some more willing to admit than others, are dealing with some severe mental health degradation, phobias, addictions, … Continue reading COVID Blues
COVID Sandwich
She scoffed at my gloves and mask as I walked through the door and when I was forced to check out of her line I prepared myself for her scolding. "You know this is all a hoax right? They're trying to turn this place into a fucking police state" I continued unloading my things off … Continue reading COVID Sandwich
CONVERSATIONS WITH ASSHOLES 