We'd been arguing for over an hour and had finally hit a lull. I wrapped my hands around my neck to stop the words from spilling out. It didn't work. "You know, sometimes it feels like you enjoy sucking the fucking spirit out of me." The words felt like the truest I'd spoken in a … Continue reading Marriage Vol.2
Category: GRIEF
Amnestic Reunion
I knew I recognized that heart Like déjà vuI squint and scan my deficient mindWhich isn't where I'd find youInstead, I close my eyes, and there you are, everywhereOur amnestic reunionAnd the infinite illuminates So I watch you,I admire you,and I'm grateful because that is all that is allowed.And sometimes I howl,and I miss you,and … Continue reading Amnestic Reunion
COVID Blues
Most of us have no understanding or compassion towards how sensitive EVERYONE'S emotional states are after being locked down in houses gorging news, booze, and social media and it shows. Let's be aware that the majority of us, some more willing to admit than others, are dealing with some severe mental health degradation, phobias, addictions, … Continue reading COVID Blues
Get Some Rest
Hands raised,No fight left in this particular battle,Because you hide beneath the surface.I’ve dulled knives digging,Skinning myself like a rabbit,Only to find flesh sensitive to wind and touch,Still, you rear your vile head, Poisoning me and others.I shun, I beg, I curse and rip your rotten roots but it’s too lateand back you go into … Continue reading Get Some Rest
Get In Get Out
I sharpened them just for you,Cat clawing from the barrel only to reach the impenetrable layer. Back to the bottom,Hollow and damp, Harvest light cracking through the seams and I can smell and feel the other side despite being contained. I shaped the wind,Wrapping it tightly around my oppressor,I shook the earth with might,I shattered … Continue reading Get In Get Out
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Removed but close enough,Heart tightening for what's to come,Making me question where we end and another begins,This God, weaved like fabric into every inch. This is how we learn the lessons of strangers,And you are anything but, Because I see you,In your wildflowers resembling spilled paint,In the wind that rolls through with the right words,In the … Continue reading …
Stay Still, Don’t Spill
Stay still, don’t spill,How many hours of different ceilings I’ve stared I couldn’t say,Body straight, you travel,burning, reminding. Don’t be upset,Don’t get anxious,Because like an ear to train tracks,It listens, It scouts, they vibrate.Like a conductor in symphony,It points, it waves, they play. My bittersweet reminders,How many must I have?Through pain and challenged vanity,I SLOW,I … Continue reading Stay Still, Don’t Spill
Let it Rest
I took you out and admired your "so-called" perfection,Brand new, vibrant,I was curious and excited about all the places we could go,All the memories we could make, But everything new gets old,And it's the endurance, The aged authenticity that makes us grow in our relationships with ourselves and others,And while I aged with scars and … Continue reading Let it Rest
Please Stay
Light peeking through the curtains, I smile with a sigh of relief.Today, I can see you,I even went to the roof to admire your rise.Making up for all the days your presence fails to penetrate my pit,Not today, I can see you sun,I mean really see you.Please, please stay.
CONVERSATIONS WITH ASSHOLES 