We'd been arguing for over an hour and had finally hit a lull. I wrapped my hands around my neck to stop the words from spilling out. It didn't work. "You know, sometimes it feels like you enjoy sucking the fucking spirit out of me." The words felt like the truest I'd spoken in a … Continue reading Marriage Vol.2
Category: FEMINISM
Get In Get Out
I sharpened them just for you,Cat clawing from the barrel only to reach the impenetrable layer. Back to the bottom,Hollow and damp, Harvest light cracking through the seams and I can smell and feel the other side despite being contained. I shaped the wind,Wrapping it tightly around my oppressor,I shook the earth with might,I shattered … Continue reading Get In Get Out
Leakey, Texas
Leakey, Texas.Thinking of you in these hills,Sisters barefoot and isolated,Only the trees lending an ear to your exceptionally curious minds,My own heart healing while honoring my unconditional love for you,And you.
The American McHealing Journey
A competition, A time frame,An end. “Heal, motherfucker!” A strong arm,An ultimatum,An empty pocket. “I’m healed!” A right of passage,An ego,An expert. “Step right up! I’ll be your shaman for $1000.”
Probity
I see you,Your probity beaming bright on my lack thereof.Slapping the lies I’ve ingested and built as my own.I’ve temporarily pleased off the pain of others,Only to be left starving and lone.Don’t be distracted by those who mistake your presence for impairment,Because we need you and I see you.And although at my most weak moments … Continue reading Probity
Dethaw
It’s true that the body keeps count,And in this moment I was reminded.I was taught that lesson of how deep it efforts to keep us safe from what we can’t bear.And I suppose in this moment,Alone in the middle of Thailand, While being massaged by a sweet stranger, It was time to face the void.Silent and stiff, … Continue reading Dethaw
Depression, The Truth
Thoughts lag coming to an abrupt halt, heavy and hollow,Eyes paralyzed staring at something,Seeing nothing.Air releases entirely from the lungs,Taking a light head to remind me to breathe.Body numbing, Stomach falling,and cheeks flushed to the ghost that has just reappeared. Snap out of it,Stay positive.An idea, a mistaken belief,That this springs from nurturing negative thoughts,That … Continue reading Depression, The Truth
Whimsy
What a beautiful line you balance.Taking in the world with grace,Gaining so much wisdom from being quiet, observant, stoic,Only to turn around and flip all that is stiff and serious, a jungle gym for your pleasure.Living between both worlds,Never hardening, only receiving.Softening at the perfect moments and finding room in the heaviest. Art by Teresa Moralez
Valor
You told me fear was necessary,That you loved your fear,That you respected your fear. That it brings the most clever out of you,Heightens every sense,Reveals your resilience under pressure. Teaches you how to best navigate a difficult situation. I sat in admiration,Thinking about how much stronger the world would be with more of you in … Continue reading Valor
CONVERSATIONS WITH ASSHOLES 